January 5 2006

I woke up feeling great but have since gotten into a funk. I am kinda bummed that I was not as successful at scrapbooking as I wanted to be. It is really hard because as a stay at home mom I thought this was something I could be great at, earn money at it and also maintain my role as SAHM but I have come to the conclusion that in order to be that successful I would have to put in long hours creating pages, and worst of all long hours kissing butt online to women I think are crazy. I don't mind doing the work but it is the butt kissing I can't stand. Being on some of these web sites is like taking a trip back to my highschool days. It is so clicky and immature. But I find it hard to give up on my dream yet I realize I cannot take that kind of time or money away from my family. So I am going to take Josh's advice and work on my photography skills. I am going to sign up for a class today actually and I hope i can get my hand on an external flash for cheap. But we'll see how things go For now I just want to get out of debt, work on my family and finish all the cleaning and organizing in the house.